I was praying the rosary one day and our Lord gave me an interior vision that seemed to last a long time, but actually lasted seconds. I was a two or three year old child. I had on a pretty dress and black shiny shoes with frilly white socks. Jesus was standing at the end of a walkway or pier. He knelt down on one knee and held out his arms and beckoned me to come to him. I was hesitant, but ran to him and he scooped me up and hugged me tight. I remember his smell. I remember feeling safe. I remember laying my head on his chest. I remember trusting him and I didn’t want to let go.
He stood me up and asked me , “What do you have?” I stated that I had new shiny shoes. I turned in my pretty dress showing off my new shoes. He exclaimed, “They are beautiful shoes! You are beautiful in them!” I felt so happy that he was happy for me. In that moment I felt beautiful, accepted and loved. He smiled and I smiled so big that I laughed out loud.
Its such a simple vision. I’ve even seen my own children do the same things. Twirl in their dress, or show off their new shoes. Its this simplicity, this act of love that acknowledges someone when they are vulnerable that is important.
Even now, when I pray, I become that little girl. I run to Jesus’ arms. I KNOW he loves me for me. I NEED that love and that comfort when the world is cruel and hateful and I am feeling like I am an odd duck. Thank you Jesus for giving me this vision. Thank you for your spiritual hugs and your love.
The Heavenly Gaze 